The holidays are behind me, the fridge has been completely cleaned out of temptation, and in 32 days I will be flying to Mexico for my plastic surgery. Things are getting real !
I have decided to go on a 30 day "clean eating" plan to prepare my body, by immune system, and my mind for this momentous surgery. This means...no alcohol, no added sugar, no caffeine, and limited starches. Bring on the protein, the veggies, the fruits, and a little bit of dairy. This is going to be such a shock to my system after all the holiday indulgences! I think the biggest challenge is going to be caffeine. Work was very stressful in the last couple of months and I was not sleeping well at all. Instead of handling that in a healthy way (yoga, meditation, exercise) I just powered through each day fueled by more and more caffeine! This just exacerbated the sleeping problem and I got on a very vicious cycle! Things are calmer now and tomorrow will be my first day to start the morning with a protein shake instead of a venti coffee!!
I am going to continue with my weight training and try and be as healthy as I possibly can when I board that plane next month! I remember how I felt two years ago when I was flying to Mexico for my VSG surgery. There is that taste of fear in the back of the throat, the butterflies in the stomach, and the yearning for a change that seems just out of reach. The last time I had such an amazing outcome...fingers crossed that history repeats itself.
In order to keep myself focused and calm, I am going to update this blog a lot in the next 32 days. I need to get back to the time where I do a lot of soul searching...time to think about what I am doing, why I am doing it, and to encourage myself to get it done. Once my surgery is done and I am of sound mind and body again, I will post some before and after photos for anyone who is interested. It is very strange when I look at my body in the mirror now and try and imagine what it will look like 32 days from now. I have looked at this same body for a very long time and while I don't like what the mirror shows me, this body has gotten me through some very tough times! It's strange to love AND hate what you see in the mirror! After my VSG surgery and subsequent weight loss, I have continued to feel like I am just not quite "there"...that more is needed to put me where I need to be. I am really really hoping that after this next surgery I find that peace and contentment that has been missing.
So stay tuned...this is going to be a wild ride. Happy New Year!!!
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